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Jennifer Searls

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brain injury

September 8, 2023

So sorry For Your Loss – Dina Gachman

brain injury, Grief, Reading

I have a book overdue at the library, but before returning it I decided to dip in a bit to see if I wanted to put it back on my hold list. Yesterday morning I picked it up and started reading, by the end of the day I had read all the way through. So …

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April 20, 2021

Left Neglected – Lisa Genova

brain injury, Grief, Reading

Our brains are wired differently, and we have to figure out how to make them work. A car accident. A brain injury. And the hard work to recover a life. Or rather, the hard work to learn a new way of being in the world. Revisiting Still Alice started me on a Lisa Genova reading …

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April 15, 2021

Still Alice – Lisa Genova

brain injury, Reading

Mom, what does it feel like? What does what feel like? Having Alzheimer’s. Can you feel that you have it right now?Well, I know I’m not confused or repeating myself right now, but just a few minutes ago, I couldn’t find ‘cream cheese,’ and I was having a hard time participating in the conversation with you and …

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April 19, 2020

when you pass through the waters….

brain injury, Grief, Window Thinking

Last week I read an article that quoted our state doctor:  The sooner we can learn to kind of swim in this new water rather than just kind of holding on to the edge of the past, the stronger and more resilient we’ll be. – Anne Zink When I hear talk of normal/new normal these …

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August 24, 2018

Paradox on Wisdom Road

brain injury, Grief, Window Thinking

Rob Bell on The RobCast 8.19.18: ….there is this paradox. This tension. This polarity that we all carry around between what we can control, and what we can’t. That which, when our hand is on the wheel, we can actually steer. And that which exists outside of our power, will, and dominion. That which is simply …

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July 13, 2018

Live the Questions

brain injury, Window Thinking

It’s a scary thing to learn you have cancer and I have wondered every day since how this could have possibly happened to me. A gut punch landed when I opened my Facebook feed a few days ago and saw beloved Anchorage cross country skier Kikkan Randall had posted a statement that she’s in treatment …

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June 27, 2018

On This, the 13th Anniversary of that Car Accident: Beannacht

brain injury, Grief, Running, Seasons, Window Thinking

On the day when The weight deadens On your shoulders And you stumble, May the clay dance To balance you……. It was a grey Monday here. There have been an awful  lot of grey days here this summer. But this Monday hung particularly heavy. I worked outside much of the day – digging, digging, digging. …

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May 14, 2018

Fire Does Burn

brain injury

There is really nothing you must be and there is nothing you must do. There is really nothing you must have and there is nothing you must know. There is really nothing you must become. However, it helps to understand that fire burns, and when it rains, the earth gets wet. My AP English teacher …

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April 30, 2018

Grief is not a staged out checklist

brain injury, Grief

Seven weeks short of 13 years since the car accident that changed my life >> I stopped by the Brain Injury Association of Alaska this morning to see what they’ve got going on. Awhile back a friend suggested that I might find a place to contribute there – tapping my background in nonprofit communication work, …

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July 9, 2013

Turning Pages To This Year. This Day.

brain injury, Window Thinking

Mid June – July is littered with  markers for events that have changed my life. On June 19, David and I celebrated 15 years of marriage. This is what I worked on, but unfinished, I never posted: It was an awkward love, Ours. Victims of small-town matchmaking drawn together by a mysterious Love that would not …

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March 13, 2013

Hanging Out My Laundry: thankyouthankyouthankyou!!

brain injury, Reading, Window Thinking

Ethan and I were in the hospital the morning after his birth when the doctor on call for our family practice clinic came to check on him. I was surprised to see this doctor because he did not practice in our clinic, but at a clinic in a nearby town. He’s a long time family …

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March 10, 2013

I’m Pregnant But Don’t Tell My Mom: A Broken Hallelujah

brain injury, Grief, Window Thinking

I had a bunch of broken ribs when I was pregnant with Ethan. I have no memory of the car accident that broke the ribs, but I remember the first trimester + broken ribs. I found out I was pregnant the day before the accident. After a long, hot June Saturday tromping through central Oregon …

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February 1, 2013

Losing the Map and Finding the Way Home

brain injury, Window Thinking

I saw a picture of a handsome curly-haired birthday boy on Facebook last week. When his Teacher-Mom took her maternity leave 10 years ago, I took my first teaching job – hired to teach her 4th grade class. I loved teaching. The challenges, the relationships, the creativity, the opportunities. My imagination easily skipped ahead and framed …

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